Pimps or hoes

 When I was in college I had a really shitty time. It was rough; my professor was a bisexual witch, literally. The room was all white, and my Korean professor was trying to sleep with me. Now why was that hard, well I was bought up supposedly Christian in an all black neighborhood. I was taught that homosexuality was a sin. Fornication was a sin. And these people were giving me the hardest time in the world.

What do I mean by hard time; I would walk into class knowing I had just worked on a group project and when the discussion began everyone in the group would jump in before me with all of the talking points and leave me by myself. 

My Korean professor would do things like hold class until midnight at his house or force us the students to come to his house to get our books. If you didn’t laugh at his jokes he would say snarky shit like oh smart girls would get it. He’d send emails to me over winter break asking for my address in New York. 

My bisexual professor would say things like oh you are a black writer otherwise you would be letting down the writers who came before you if you didn’t agree. Needless to say she would make us read mostly gay writers. Did I have a problem with that, yeah. I did.

You see I’m the type of person that has no problem with you doing yo shit just don’t impose yo shit on me. Do you. I didn’t go to school to be converted into a Korean fucking homosexuality accepting hoe. 


But overtime that’s just what happened, with the constant exposure to white mainstream promiscuous culture I became more tolerant of promiscuity, fucking men outside my race, and fucking to get ahead or away from the pressure. God had allowed the pressures of this world to make me more tolerant at the expense of my self esteem, morals, and integrity.

Fast forward several years and same shit was happening in med school. Was this a coincidence or divine strategy? Was I divinely being pressured to sleep with white men and act like the world for these last days? 


Naw she wouldn’t do that because of this because she slept with him. Naw she wouldn’t do that because of this because she slept with him. 


Are you a hoe or a pimp? 






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